“Oh, hey,” Fuck. He’s been turning over what to say in his head for the last few hours and nothing seems good enough. Like when he wrote and rewrote what he was going to put in the card for so long Max got sick of waiting and roped Andy into pelting him with marshmallows because they wanted to go get dinner and not wait for him all night.
It might seem like strides on the outside but it feels like baby steps while he waits for it to all implode again. But that’s fatalism and he’s received a thorough dressing down for that from the therapist so he’s trying to learn to stop it before it overwhelms him and gives him an excuse to make stupid choices that he’s not proud of.
“I uh… I wasn’t really sure if I should do anything but…” but he’d been bullied into just taking the plunge. “I didn’t want you to think I was silently dumping you again or something.” And okay he’s not convinced Will hasn’t done just that to him instead but he’s trying to follow the request to stop assuming things if Will hasn’t actually said them. “And it’s Valentines Day, so yeah… happy that.”
It never used to be this awkward but he had never had to sit with two years of fear that he was about to lose the person who mattered most only to end up reflexively pushing him away to try and get rid of it then. He’s got making up to do and facing it for a third horrible time was a big enough push to decide to put in the work instead.
“Also I’m coming over on Friday, to Hawkins, not to drop in on you unannounced or something, but I’ll be staying with Eddie and Steve because my parents house is a fucking warzone.”
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It might seem like strides on the outside but it feels like baby steps while he waits for it to all implode again. But that’s fatalism and he’s received a thorough dressing down for that from the therapist so he’s trying to learn to stop it before it overwhelms him and gives him an excuse to make stupid choices that he’s not proud of.
“I uh… I wasn’t really sure if I should do anything but…” but he’d been bullied into just taking the plunge. “I didn’t want you to think I was silently dumping you again or something.” And okay he’s not convinced Will hasn’t done just that to him instead but he’s trying to follow the request to stop assuming things if Will hasn’t actually said them. “And it’s Valentines Day, so yeah… happy that.”
It never used to be this awkward but he had never had to sit with two years of fear that he was about to lose the person who mattered most only to end up reflexively pushing him away to try and get rid of it then. He’s got making up to do and facing it for a third horrible time was a big enough push to decide to put in the work instead.
“Also I’m coming over on Friday, to Hawkins, not to drop in on you unannounced or something, but I’ll be staying with Eddie and Steve because my parents house is a fucking warzone.”